My self pleasure

My name is Logan, and I live a pretty normal life. I live with my parents, go to college, and work part-time in a local animal shelter. Anyone could argue that my life is pretty boring, but I kind of manage to make it a bit more entertaining. I am a gay man, but my parents do not know this yet. I have always been a shy guy, and talking about my sexuality seemed terrifying.

 

This does not mean I have never dated anyone, no. I have had a few dates here and there, but I like to classify them as dating disasters. It’s not because the dates went bad, not at all, but because all these guys I have dated were disappointing, to say the least. And I am not talking about sex or looks or anything of the sort. They’re just shallow and boring.

 

That is why I take such big pleasure in masturbation. I masturbate a lot, maybe 4 or 5 times a week, more so if I have nothing good to do through the week. It’s very relaxing and I like to explore my body like that. Besides, I am too shy and prude to just go out and have sex with any guy who’s willing to. I do not roll that way.

 

Most of the time I like to simply masturbate the good old way, maybe with some porn. I watch both straight and gay porn, and when I watch straight I focus on the guys of course. There is something about straight performers that Gay performers simply lack and vice versa, but that I do not know what could be.

 

Even if I like porn, I feel that every time I masturbate using my imagination I have more fun. It leaves me laughing or smiling after I come. I tend to imagine myself fucking guys I develop crushes on, or being fucked by porn stars I like. It turns me on even more when I imagine porn stars that are straight fucking my brains out.

 

I have plenty of fantasies with these porn stars. There is one named Kenny, he is a straight porn star. He has a thick cock, not so long but it looks rather yummy. He is quite savage while fucking these girls in the videos, and I’ve imagined him fucking me more than once. I like to imagine us fucking in a shower, I really like shower sex videos and I enjoy fantasizing that I am being fucked in the shower.

 

Then again, sometimes I fantasize that I fuck Kenny. I have had sex only once, so I do not really know what I like, but imagining flip-fucks with Kenny the porn star turn me on and make me feel really hot. All I can imagine is that fucking someone must feel like masturbating, but warmer and maybe even better.

 

Unknown to my parents, I keep a few sex toys in my room. I’m careful so that they will not find these, and I really enjoy using them. I have 2 dildos, one is a short, fat penis, quite similar to Kenny’s, and the other one is a longer and skinnier dick in a cute tan color. I don’t really understand people who use neon colored dildos, maybe they want to be fucked by some odd monster of sorts.

 

I like to penetrate my ass with the smaller dildo when I masturbate, especially if I am imagining Kenny do it. It really makes the fantasy much more believable. I stroke my hard cock to the same beat that I fuck myself using the dildo. I like to let my cum fall over myself, usually splashing my chest and tummy, and sometimes I pick up my semen with my fingers and lick it. I’ve read online that many guys tend to do this as well. It’s interesting because it does not taste like anything.

 

The only guy I’ve had sex with, my ex-boyfriend, said that I was pretty good at giving head. It’s curious because I have only done so to him, but I believe him nonetheless. Sometimes I suck my dildos while masturbating and I like to think of this as practice, but it does feel nicer to have an actual dick inside my mouth. My ex’ cock was curved and fat, and penetration hurt a lot because of this. I think I never enjoyed sex with him, that one time we fucked.

 

It feels much better to fuck myself using my dildos. I just masturbate myself and fuck me with the dildos, but sometimes I use my fingers too. My ex was bad at fingering but I do it so at least I feel some pleasure in my anus while masturbating. I like to slide two or three fingers into my ass as I masturbate.

 

When I am not using a dildo or fingering myself, I pinch and rub my nipples while I masturbate. I also spread my legs open for some reason, and it makes me feel much more free while I give myself some pleasure. I wish my dick was a bit longer, so I could suck it myself.  I am pretty flexible. Maybe if I was able to suck my dick I would be able to understand what my ex meant when he said I was good at giving head.

 

There is another porn star I like, but this one is gay. His name is Greg and he usually bottoms, so I imagine myself fucking him all the time. When I masturbate imagining this my loads tend to be bigger and feel better overall. He has a really cute bubble but that I love to see guys rim on the videos. He’s a real whore bottom and basically dances on top of these dicks that fuck him on video. It turns me on a lot.

 

Like I’ve mentioned, I’m a shy guy, and thus I can’t even think of joining an orgy or something of the sort. However, I enjoy group sex videos a lot, especially if they involve double or triple penetration. Greg has been fucked by two dicks simultaneously in multiple videos, and I love to see his expression when both guys finish on his face and cover him in their semen. I do not want to have a group orgy but I would like a guy who can come like 2 guys together, to splash my face with his semen.

 

I have gotten horny writing this, so I will probably go masturbate after I am done. Most of the time I have to masturbate while my parents are home, and so I have to be discreet, but at night when they are sleeping or if they are away, that is when I let myself go even more than usual. By this I mean watching porn, using the dildos, fingering myself and masturbating in odd places or positions, all over my room.

 

I really like to watch myself masturbate. It’s hot to see myself stroking my own dick, getting a bit sweaty, pinching my nipples and seeing my hard cock on the mirror. I really enjoy doing this and it’s probably my favorite way to masturbate. I like mirrors in general. I have been so horny while masturbating myself in front of the mirror that sometimes my load splashes it and I have to clean it. I have gotten to the point where I just lick it off the mirror with my tongue. I like videos where the top forces the bottom to lap their load up from a table or any surface where it lands on. I would not mind being made to do so.

 

My favorite position is probably the 69, I just think it is really hot to suck a dick while yours is being sucked too. My boyfriend and I did this a lot to my request, and he was surprised I liked it so much. My dick was bigger than his and I liked to listen to him gagging with it in his mouth. I liked it when he came inside my mouth, the spasms of his dick felt really interesting inside my mouth.

 

I have now stripped down to my underwear as I write this, and I won’t go into detail of my body but you can imagine a tall guy with black hair and brown eyes, sort of hairy on the lower body and belly, sitting in the dark writing about masturbation in his boxers. If I was the one imagining this I would probably be hard by now.

 

That was my story on how I like to please myself, I would like to know if any of you guys enjoy the same things as I do. I will go masturbate now, most probably in front of my mirror while imagining Kenny fuck me in front of a mirror as well. See you later.