Not what I expected

It’s been about 2 years since I broke up with my last boyfriend. Long story short, he cheated on me. I have been seeing other guys, but it has always been unsuccessful. For some reason. They’re all just a bunch of fuck boys! They can’t even please me well in bed. I have had to finish what they couldn’t even start by myself. And it made me feel very lonely.

I would get more pleasure using my own fingers and sliding them into my vagina, or even using my vibrator. I knew the way inside me better than any guy would ever do. They were nothing compared to a dang piece or rubber, and they certainly could not compare to my ex boyfriend.

My best friend, Solange, noticed that I was lonely and desperate, because apparently when people is like that they have a different aura about them. She then suggested me online dating, and showed me an app that she used frequently. She said she has met so many great guys there, yet she is still single… I wonder what is the real part to her story.

Anyway, I had nothing to lose and a burning curiosity so I just downloaded the app. Within the first few minutes with it, I had already set up an attractive profile. A few hours passed and I got nothing, which made me feel a little ugly. I had not messaged anyone either because I was not sure how to or what to say; beginner’s fear.

The next day, I woke up to a message of a guy named Ryan. Ryan was a handsome guy, with a nice, attractive smile and brown hair. He was not my type but he was very cute. So I started to talk to him. Eventually, we exchanged phone numbers and began to talk via normal texting, eventually getting to the point we had long calls. Ryan lived in the next town over, just a few hours away, and we were excited to meet up and of course have sex.

Ryan and I got intimate quick; it started with slight flirting and teasing and it ended in a flurry of nude pictures being sent back and forth. He was very well endowed which turned me on, and I could only imagine they way he would put his tool to use. I was hoping he would be good in bed at least!

He knew exactly what to say to make me horny; I sent him multiple videos of me fingering myself and making me squirt, with my moaning included. In one video call we had, he jerked off while I fingered myself until we came. It was some sort of long distance intimacy I had never experienced before, but the thought of having him so close yet so far away, so reachable but unreachable, turned me on to no end. It was easy to come when we played together on camera.

After a few weeks of talking, getting to know each other, nighttime sessions to masturbate on camera and nudes, I decided it was time to meet him. By this point I had uninstalled the dating app from my phone because I was pretty satisfied with my catch, so I felt I had no more use for it and it was cluttering my phone. I told Ryan of the plans to meet him, making up an imaginary agenda of what we would do. He seemed pretty distant about the idea but agreed to do it. I was very excited; I had started to really like Ryan.

The meeting was scheduled for the next week, and I was super excited. Ryan and I continued to talk, but our sex talk had completely evaporated by now. Even if I tried to start it, he would brush it off or say he’s busy. That began to be weird to me, because he was always up to it. Later that week, what evaporated from our relationship was him. He blocked me apparently, and i couldn’t reach him. Just in time for our meeting!

I re-downloaded the dating app to see if he was there, and he had blocked me as well. All our conversations vanished. It was as if he never existed, but, what about all these dick pics I still have? Did I fall into a trap of the modern dating phenomenon?