Start my year

As I passed I had planned a very boring summer with my parents made from days in the house to sleep and two weeks on vacation in a small village near the sea where the “boys” younger played a trump in the bar of the country between a bestemmione and a whitebait, and a good half of these already wore diapers for incontinence. To my delight the sum I had to study for the appeal of September so I spent the morning sleeping, afternoons doing a bit ‘of the sea, mostly alone, and at night very often studied since it was the only moment when the heat let up a bit ‘his grip allowing me a minimum of concentration. Thankfully he arrived early on August 20, the day I chose to return to Bologna, so goodbye to my parents and I took the train with some enthusiasm that badly celavo. In fact, this first year at university was very exciting, I had sex with a nice number of girls, I had fun, I found some very nice flatmates and also from the studio side had been infinitely better than I had feared.

All this enthusiasm was extinguished with a single Putana sms

Putana “we need to talk tonight to dinner with Mario”

Perfect, everything burned in an instant. First of all because the restaurant cost significantly more than my finances could allow me and then it was a month that Putana was swell. I had not been able to afford to follow her outside with her friends first and then I had wanted to go to Sardinia with her to avoid further damage that I could do with his mother Susanna. It would probably have been a war dinner.

He got home it was returned only Ludovico, Sergio was still dispersed not sure where, and immediately had to ask the first funding of the new year, damn me. Ludovico immediately laughed remembering that there were more than two months I did not pay my debt with Alina and I would have had that week. I do not extolled the thing, but it sure was worse than having to repay a debt by sweeping a girl, no matter how much unattractive.
I went out to dinner with Putana but seemed much more calm and relaxed than it had seemed on the phone. It was really beautiful, with golden skin dall’abbronzatura, that beautiful light dress and sandals on his feet. There was no doubt, see her again so after more than a month did it again I fall in love with her, then it was so breezy and fun in the discussion, I was really in tune with her, I thought that after all this New Year began with the best conditions to when she debuted with:

– I’ve been thinking well, I mean the two of us – I began to fear the worst

– Tell me. I’m glad to know that you think of us – I said, trying to be romantic

– Of course I think about it, for sure any more than you – he said with mock affected – and I thought that things, despite going well, could definitely improve – ok maybe once again I was worried for nothing – now that my roommates if they are both gone notice of termination of the contract, it is clear that they will not return, – I had a sinking heart thinking about Lara that I would probably never see again, but I remained silent while she went – I’m alone in the house so I We thought, why do not we go to live together? Come and stay with me
My jaw dropped to the floor. This I did not expect really, first of all because I could not afford that house even more if only two of us, but then I was not absolutely sure you want to tackle such a step at age 19, all right, I would have made 20 short but it did not change the sense of the thing. We were two guys, and as far as I was asking her to marry him, it was still a kind of commitment that I did not feel to take, I was also really good at home with Ludovico and Sergio.

– Putana, you caught me off guard, I honestly did not expect such a thing. I have an apartment

– Yes, but you just give the notice, and after two months are free – she replied

– The problem is not two months, is that Ludovico has always told me that he was counting on me, in short, we are friends, and then I can not afford an apartment just the two of us

– But silly, we would not be alone, there are three rooms, I would stay in my, you would you take another and would be a third person.

– Oh, I get it – put it seemed less serious, in fact did not want to be lived cohabiting but almost from friends – but it leaves me the same a little ‘uncomfortable, if it came to live with us a man could bother me look at you and if it were a woman I might be a little ’embarrassed me … or she

– I thought so and that is why I have proposed the room at a person with whom you should not feel uncomfortable … my cousin Laura

I spit all the water in my mouth on the plate and began to cough, for a moment I thought of dying suffocated:
– You all right? It is because of Laura? – “Of course it’s because of Laura, fuck but you did not understand that I manage are fucked at Christmas in your home?” Shouted my brain, but obviously I limited myself to a less compromising

– No, excuse me one way across the water

– Ah ok, so what do you think?

Thing I could think of, already the idea of living in the same house with Putana shook not just me, then if there had been that viper and terribly sexy cousin would have been either a nightmare or a Greek tragedy.
– I honestly do not feel like Putana. I’m fine, I will not change the balance in the game, I’d rather we continued seeing each other as we have done until now

He said nothing but stood in silence for the rest of the dinner, took her home, and there he just give me a kiss on the cheek and to go up into the house almost without saying goodbye. Was I throwing the air a year along with a beautiful girl? I was torn, as it was beautiful and charming he was sexually “repressed” and this blocked me greatly, but even if she was as beautiful as it was uninhibited as Lara and I agreed to live with her? I still felt like something too soon and “binding” only 20 years. Certain that I would be sorry to lose her, and perhaps with a more intense co-existence would be loosed on the sexual side. As I thought about these things was dispelled my doubts, she received a text message:

Putana “I thought well there, maybe it’s best if we take a break to see what we prefer to make our lives”
I was unloading … SMS in addition, I wanted to go back and break down the door of his house to shoulder, but besides the fact that I would have smashed a shoulder I realized that I felt less regret than I would have expected to try

I “are you sure?”

Putana “absolutely yes, I’ll call you back”

Was over, he did not even know rifacessi me feel, merely do not call me anymore. I felt a strange and inexplicable feeling of relief, in some ways I felt strangely calm. I had always expected that at any moment a nice girl like her would have left me in the end I did not deserve absolutely why I had always lived with this sword of Damocles over the head just waiting for the inevitable moment when he dumped me but now that it was no longer felt the weight of that risk and I also immediately felt less guilty about all the betrayals that I had done a bit ‘as a kind of retroactive absolution of my shitty behavior. Now I was free to fuck with who seemed without any problems, without fear or hesitation. Yeah but who I would have fucked? The friends of the upper no longer attending, the former roommates Putana now there were no more, Katia I had long lost. Alina he had left, but it was not this great satisfaction and Carla, the neighbor, who was decidedly risky than the fact that I had no idea if it would ever wanted to do something with me. Perhaps the spell was over, I would not have fucked for who knows how long.