Cloudy

I wake up to no messages from my boyfriend, Thomas, something that had started to become more and more common the past few days. I tried to not pay attention to it today, because I had plenty of things to do on the day and could not afford to have the negative energy over me.

So, after an hour of having woken up, I actually got up from my bed and decided to take a shower. It was a long, cold shower, from which I didn’t really want to get out from much. Eventually, I did, of course.

I went on to make breakfast then after eating I cleaned my house. It took me 2 hours, and through all that time, I had no text from my boyfriend. So. I decided to send one to him myself.

“Good morning my little prince”

I sent the message and went to put away the cleaning tools from where I had gotten them to finish my work for the day. When I got back to my phone, I had no reply from him, but I did have messages from other people.

Why was it that he was so distant suddenly? Today, he had his day off, so I don’t know what was going on. I decided to text him just once more, to see if he would reply.

“Are you there?”

I threw my phone in the couch and went to take another shower afterwards. It was another long shower, probably 20 minutes. After I got out and dressed up, I went to check my phone to see I had not received any message from Thomas yet. However, two minutes later, I finally got his reply.

“Good morning I just woke up”

His reply made absolute sense, since it was his day off he was on all his right to wake up whenever he wanted. Maybe I was just imagining things. I decided I should probably drop by for a visit since we both had free time and we have not been communicating much this past week. I also decided to bake him a cake since it was sure to add to the surprise.

I made a chocolate fudge cake with cream topping, one of our favorite recipes to bake together. It had been a while since we last cooked anything together, though, so this was truly a flashback to happier times. As soon as the cake was done, I set it down to get cold while I went to get dressed up. I looked out the window to see it was still cloudy, but no rain was on sight yet. It had been like this all morning, it was odd.

After I was dressed and the cake was colder, I set out to go to his house. I left mine to get into my car, which was very cold inside strangely. The weather still seemed like it was ready to rain, but nothing happened. I started the engine and drove away, thinking about the long drive ahead of me because he lived on the other side of town, at least 30 minutes away on car if traffic was in good shape.

Well, traffic was not in good shape but we had the same weather on all areas of town, so it was overall a cloudy and depressing day. I just drove slowly to let the cake get even colder to be ready to eat. Eating hot chocolate cake is bad for the stomach.

As soon as I got to his house, I parked in the front and got off the car, cake on hand, and walked towards the door. This is where things started to get weird. As I got closer to the door, I could hear muffled moaning coming from Thomas’s house. I knocked on the door and rang the doorbell, and the moaning stopped. A few minutes later, and more door knocking as well, Thomas greeted me by the door, wearing nothing but some shorts. He seemed pretty tired.

“I baked you a cake. Let’s have it together since it’s your day off and I have missed you a lot” I said, looking into his eyes and ignoring what had just happened. “That’s so sweet of you dear… but I can’t really do it right now”

He said that and I was confused. Why not? He had time to sleep all day so surely he has time to eat cake with his boyfriend. “Come on, driving here was a pain. Let’s eat together, it’s your favorite” I tried to keep my smile. “Just let me in” I added and tried to get into the house, being stopped by him.

“No, uh” his voice broke by now. “Why can’t I come in? Do you have company?” I asked, now with a slightly angry tone. “It’s not that, I’ll be ready in a bit, give me a second” he said very quickly. “Just let me in, I’ll wait inside” I said, and suddenly, I saw the silhouette of someone on the living room. “Who is there?” I asked, and he continued putting force to not let me in. “No one”

I walked in by force and walked towards the living room, and found a make guy lying on the couch. He covered his parts as I watched in awe, tears flowing down my face that I could not control. “I’m sorry to interrupt.” I said, tears still flowing down. I set the cake on a nearby table and looked at Thomas. “this is not what you think” he said, thinking I would be so dumb to believe that. “Sure. Have the cake for you two. You had left it clear you were done with me. I’m sorry” I don’t really know where I got the guts to say all that, but it was quick. I left crying and went to my car, then drove away quickly.

As I drove away to my house, it started to rain a lot, all the rain that had not fallen through the day was falling down now, and I couldn’t keep my eyes from crying as much as it was raining.