Innocently

It was shocking and a bit scary, but also exciting and cute. It happened a month ago, when my friend invited me to his house to play videogames and maybe watch a movie; we had no classes so we just wanted to chill. For the record, he is 19 years old.

His name is Jason, he is older than me but shorter, and he is also cuter. He has nice brown hair, sleek, with shiny green eyes. I have brown eyes with black hair, and a thin figure. We have known each other since we were 4 years old, and have been friends ever since. Of course, by this point, we have seen each other naked but we had never had any sort of irregular feelings towards the other, or so I think… growing up so close to someone else is a mixture of feelings.

Jason and I went to his room, located in the basement of the house, to hook up the game system. We were to play fighting and shooting games, we liked to compete in everything, even in high school we competed a lot. We rarely ever fight, though, even if we are so competitive. I feel very safe and open next to him, more so than with anyone else. I think he feels the same around me.

Anyway, we started to play games for a while, eating some junk food like chips and ice cream. It was 11 pm when his mom dropped down to the basement to tell us she was going to sleep, then told us where to find more food in case we were hungry. Jason’s mom is very nice and I know she trusts me. She went to bed and then we continued playing, then I bested him. We wrestled for a bit after that, then we started another game, a fighting game.

We played a few matches, and he could only beat me like 2 times, so he was a bit upset on our last match. I kicked his ass, and then he jumped on me to wrestle more, maybe to let his anger from losing out. We did like always, basically rolling on each other, then we stopped for a bit because we were tired. I was over him and we were looking into each other’s eyes, smiling.

“Are you cheating?” He asked, still smiling. “Accept I am better than you, Jason” I said, looking right into him. “What if I cheated?” He asked, and had a funny expression. “What?” Was all that I managed to say… before he kissed me suddenly. It was a 5 seconds kiss, and was very sudden, but still shocking. I stood up from him, then looked back at him in shock. “I’m sorry” he said, looking truly ashamed.

“It’s okay.” I said after the shock. “Where did that come from?” I asked afterwards. He stayed silent for a bit, then replied. “An impulse”. I was confused. We both have dated girls before, even if it has been just a few times and for a really short time. Last girl I dated was around a year ago, and he was kind of in the same. Maybe he was just feeling horny and wanted to release it? Wrong.

“Was it bad?” He asked, a serious expression on his face. “I mean, it was really short” I said, being a bit vague. We stayed silent for a few minutes, and as awkwardness started to build up, he broke the silence. “Maybe another one will help you decide?” He asked, his words coming out of his mouth quickly. He looked into my eyes for a second then looked away.

“Okay” I said, unsure about why I said it. Then, we looked into each other’s eyes and smiled shyly, getting closer to each other’s face, sitting on his bed on a silent room. We closed our eyes right before kissing, and then we kissed. It was slow at first, like a regular kiss, then he put his hands over my shoulders and we began to speed up a little.

We continued kissing, our eyes closed, totally into the moment. We stopped for a brief moment, and I tried to say something “is this…” was what I managed to say, before he stopped me with another kiss. “Just… let it be” he said, then kissed me again. We continued kissing, then we took our shirts off. He laid me down then began to kiss my neck, going down slowly to my nipples, kissing them softly, kissing my belly and chest as well, then returning to my face. He was very loving.

Afterwards, I began to kiss his neck. If I had implied that his reason for jumping on me was that he was horny and lonely, what were my reasons to reply to him in such a manner? I decided to just go with the flow and gave in, then we ended up shirtless on his bed and kissing. His body felt hot against mine, and I was hard. I think he could feel it.

I slowly took my hand down to his crotch and started to massage his hard on from over his pants, and he began to do the same to me and that made me even hornier. We began to kiss harder and harder until we could not hold it anymore and then he pushed me away. “What are we doing?” He asked, an expression of worry on his face.

“I think we are doing what we want to do” I managed to say, shyly. “Is that so? Do you like me?” He asked, still looking serious. “Well, I liked what we just did” is what I said, flustered. “Didn’t you?” The he looked away. “I did. Maybe a bit too much” he admitted. “I could notice”. He was visibly embarrassed by now. “It’s okay, it can stay between us” I said to comfort him. “do you promise?” He asked, now with a worried tone. “Of course” I replied confidently.

Ever since then, we have been a little more and more close, in the physical side. We haven’t made out again, but I am sure we will soon…We are always cuddling when no one is around, and I think he is insecure about it all but likes my company in a different way now. I do know and am sure that I like his company in a romantic way though, and can’t wait until we make out again.

Last weekend at his house, we were watching a movie and he laid over me the entire time. He may be shy and insecure about it but I think he likes it a lot and I do too. I never imagined a romance would bloom between me and my best friend after so many years of friendship. Even if things were uncertain, I think we explored a new layer of our relationship and maybe, just maybe, it is something we have been suppressing for a while now.