Unexpected

Out of the blue, appeared a boy who I started to like without even noticing. He is quite different to all other guys I have liked, personality wise. He is also not the most attractive, but I consider him quite handsome.

When I first met him, we never talked. It was something extremely casual, limited to hellos and goodbyes. He is a very shy guy, and he had stated so before. However, I was not interested in him in that moment. I do not know when or how, but the attraction began to appear without me realizing it. Suddenly, I was thinking about how cute he was and I wanted to know him a bit better. However, since I am rather shy as well, this was an impossible mission.

I was certainly hopeless. I began to admire him in the distance, firmly believing that nothing would ever happen between us, at all. Then one day, out of the blue, he texted me. It was unexpected and short, and we did not talk much but it felt nice that he reached out. I did not want to think much of it, anyway. Then as the days passed, he kept messaging me more and more. His messages were always short and shy, but I took this as him wanting to reach out to me and get to know me. Before long, my attraction had a cause, and I found myself falling for his smarts, his humour, his looks and his quirks.

As our relationship continued to develop, more good things happened. We had our own inner jokes, we talked almost every day, we sent pictures of ourselves to each other… I think he likes my looks but will not admit it. I do know I like his looks. I am aware he has a few pictures of me saved as well. Little things started to add up and I could imagine us being together. This was very odd for me.

I started to feel more and more comfortable around him as time passed, and I think he felt the same way because he started to open up more and more. But, with this, I began to learn new things about him, not all necessarily good. He apparently was not interested in relationships and his views about love were quite… cynical and just plain negative. Even if I knew this, I continued to idealize something for us, because by now my attraction was something I could just not vanish from me.

But this was the worst part. I started to have terrible anxiety and just started to visualize and fear rejection. I could not take my mind away from these negative thoughts, even if our relationship was positive. By then all I could think was “I would rather have him break my heart than breaking it myself” and made that my mantra. I just continued, because I could not control it. Even if I knew the outcome would be bad for me, and potentially ruin the friendship.

But this is where things changed again, when I had almost lost all hope. He invited me to his house to watch a movie, and of course, I could not just reject such an invitation, specially because we never really hang out much, limiting our conversations to text messages. I agreed to go and then went to his house, it was a cold rainy day. He was home alone with his pets, and we ate some candy before going to the living room.

He had already set up the dvd and everything, and had even brought blankets to the couch so we could cover ourselves, the house was very cold and even more so with the rain. We sat down on the large, modular reclinable couch to watch the movie, an action sci-fi one. We sat by each other, almost cuddling, and leaned towards the other more and more as the movie went on.

By the time the movie was over, we were basically laying on each other right there on the couch. The tv screen was pitch black, and the only source of light was the dim light coming into the room by the windows, it gave the living room a pink hue as the twilight covered the skies outside. We looked into each other’s eyes, now realizing how close we were, then he jumped on me and gave me a kiss, our first kiss. I looked at him in shock and he smiled nervously, then I kissed him again, slowly, indulging in the taste of his lips, something I had imagined for so long and was finally obtaining.

We continued to make out, he was notably shy about it, and we made out slowly and sensually. By now my dick was rock hard, and I could only imagine his was hard as well, adding to my horniness. We continued to make out, increasing the intensity, and I poked him with my dick through my pants as I leaned towards him to kiss his neck, something he seemed to enjoy a lot. By being against him I could feel his hard dick as well, and by that moment I could not resist it.

I went down slowly and unzipped his pants, to feel his cock under his boxers and make it get harder. I slowly took down his boxers and let his cock out, then I kissed it softly and swallowed it with my mouth. I held his hand as I went up and down his hard cock, and he pressed his hand on mine while moaning in pleasure. Then, he held my head up to kiss me and then went and did the same, unzipped my pants to let my already hard cock out, and began to suck it.

He was very good. I have not had many guys suck my dick but this was certainly the best one. We continued to suck each other off until we came, letting our loads out in each other’s mouths. Then we laid down on the couch, panting a little, and began to kiss again. Afterwards we just cuddled and talked for about an hour until I had to leave.

When I left, I could not stop smiling. I had already thought he wanted nothing to do with me outside of friendship, but I was proven wrong by himself. This was truly unexpected. I just went home, and as soon as I got there I texted him that I had a good time. He seemed shy to talk about it but he did say he had fun too. Since then, we have started to hang out more. We have not had sex yet, but we do kiss sometimes. I think we are moving in the right direction, and am happy because I like him a lot.

I should just let things flow instead of over worrying or imagining things that have not happened. Maybe he does like me a lot and can’t find a way to tell me, maybe because he had never gone through it before or he would feel uncomfortable in that position. I will let him figure it out, but certainly I cannot wait until he lets himself loose again and we can have sex. He sucks dick well.