The Hate Fuck I Secretly Craved

Some of you might remember me, two or three months back making a post about how I masturbated to a guy I fully despised and how I much I hated that I started fantasizing and masturbating with the thought of him…well I did it which many of you suggested I do. I can’t even really describe how it happened but I will do my very best. Feel free to ask anything, I’ll be open. For the sake of confusion I’m gonna call the guy I fucked/hate Mike.

I honestly think it was my ovulation week and he and I were left alone for a while during a meet up with friends. He took a ride with one of his friends and I brought my own car. I needed to leave the hang out early since I was the only one there who didn’t get a day off the next day…I told the group I needed to go home and rest and after bunch of them attempting to convincing me to stay they finally gave up. It was after their fail attempt Mike asked if I could ride him home since the guy who drove him wasn’t planning on leaving either and Mike had some stuff he needed to sort out at home too. I didn’t think much of it and just said sure…his house was on the way to mine so it wasn’t too much of a trouble for me.

At this point I felt really awkward with him in the car, I honest tried to play it cool but my heart was pounding …I was also so ashamed and embarrassed since I basically masturbated to this guy. On the way he was being his usual self talking about some conspiracy theories he firmly believes in, one of them I can not even say on here (also I don’t think it’s allowed in this sub Reddit?) but I strongly opposed him on it and it turned into this banter of “you’re such a fucking idiot” “you never listen” followed with some personal insults. Let it be known this was pretty normal for us and at this point we get over it. I usually make a comment about his hairline cause he’s pretty paranoid about it and I like the angry reaction he gets out of it. But idk this time it felt kinda like we were flirting? I didn’t even realize I was smiling at him.

Anyways we finally reach his house and he tries to invite me inside if I want coffee/water anything. Now at this point I was kinda like…you know what fuck it let’s see if I actually have a shot in this. I come in and we sit and chat for a bit. My heart is actually beating out of my chest cause this is very much out of my character but after taking a long ass glug of my water I rub my hand against his thigh…I honestly expected him to throw me out the window at this point and I would have NOT blamed him cause if the roles were switched I might have too 😭 but he kept it there and even put his hand on mine too. After a while he leans in and I kiss him. At first it felt a little awkward and wrong but I slowly got over it cause I’ve gotten this far already and it got more passionate and rough. His hands were under my shirt so quickly and I had to hold back from moaning so early because admittedly he turned me on so fast I just wanted any article of clothing between us off as soon as possible and have myself moan his name but he was a bit of a tease and it felt like he could smell how pent up I was because he was teasing me, rubbing me the right way, biting me neck, I bit his lip. Finally after so long he put his fingers inside me and omg it felt so good, it was even better than I imagined it and by the time his dick was in me I think I was on cloud 9. Couldn’t even remember my own name at that point, it’s sorta like drunken haze but I was completely sober.

I honestly am so happy I finally fucking did it, I was really close to just saying no and not get in his house, mostly cause I was stubborn and I didn’t wanna admit that I wanted to fuck him someone who frustrates me so much but hate sex…is so fucking good.