Secrets of a mother

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There are issues that are difficult to explain, as regards incest It is often silent for fear not soil the good name of the family.

I am aware that in the vast majority of the time incest begins with sexual abuse and ends with the rape thing that is reported is the violation of one. daughter or several daughters, by the father or a close relative.

In my case I was never raped or forced Before giving me the courage and strength to tell it who will read me. I met countless pages devoted to incest and stories the great written by men and fictional, talking about large penises and marathon sex sessions majority, I found very few stories that managed to capture my attention and be convincing from the reality of life in a incest situation because only who has lived fully the issue knows what life holds in this form.

I am a woman of 42 years, but when I was a teenager my father accustomed me it was normal to be touched by him, I was not aware that that was incest to 14 years who mentioned it to my best friend like natural . She was surprised. It was the first time I questioned the conduct of my father and mine. However contacts and touches followed.

My father never penetrated me and showed me his sex, but since I can remember I remember I opened her legs to examine me, ” to see how his little girl was growing&quot ;, so he told me. When I bathed, he was the one who wiped me and took me to my bed to sleep.

I started to sleep face down, put his hand under my pajamas and caressed the back, buttocks and sometimes the vulva fingered me until I fell asleep.

That was until the 15 years or so. My mother once caught him stroking my crotch and told him that because I was too big for me to bathe, he took it as a joke and said that just played and that I liked, as he kissed me on the outside and the vulva I could feel his tongue licking, I think it was the first time I had an orgasm, but did not know it at the time.

In time for work and my father began touring and being away from home for some periods. When he returned home was I who sought him, he was about 17 years and helping me with the homework got their fingers into my panties and I stroked. At night I woke up feeling his tongue moving gently in my pussy, and I said, stay calm, and sleep better.

Sometimes I wondered friends or boyfriends and as he talked made me questions about that guy I was attracted and as he talked he stood me or my skirt I took off my dress or my short and made me lie down on my back, it was I who I took off my panties between my legs opened it expecting to feel his fingers into my privacy and began to tell me that he had grown and opened between my pussy lips looking very carefully to make sure that my hymen was intact and gave me advice not to allow touch my little treasure.

Then I became interested in boys and each time my father played me less. Until he stopped.

Despite having a boyfriend I lost my virginity to a friend of my father and my mother’s lover, a man who knew how to arouse my passion for sex and was able to give my father a dose of curiosity and pleasure to deflower almost in front of him, try not scream but I could not, despite the pleasure he felt also felt I halved when I penetrated and thus was like his little girl was made woman.

Time passed, the man was free to come home and be intimate with my mother, my father was masturbating while watching was possessed, on several nights sometimes get to keep sex with both my mother and me. Life went on I married a man older than me and I can say that the relationship was quite good despite the age difference.

I do not perceive any sexual trauma in me. I claim as practice incest, I just wanted to tell my experience as a witness of non-traumatic incest. And large memory contacts from my father as very pleasant, have enriched my sex life and although relations with my husband were good, so much so that I told my experience, lived with my father I discovered that achieved a full orgasm and total when I figured it was my father who touched me. I do not know if that will be a trauma for me or not was a experience that changed my life.

I am now married my family consists of four people; my husband, my three daughters and me.

It is for them and for me a total secret, everything that happens in our house, because so many things, scandals and foremost there is a family, morals, laws, religions and idiosyncrasies of each people to determine what imagines It is right and what is not.

Perhaps for many who are reading this think I live is not incest, but I found evidence that incest is not only parents and children, also is between stepparents and stepchildren, foster parents – adoptive children, siblings, step-siblings, cousins, in-laws, friends, etc.

In the absence of a son and being my husband and a man of great age, despite being married to accept with my daughters live a full sex with another man, at one time I felt uncomfortable and out of place for having accepted a and I am married life, but I will not deny that the rewards have been very pleasant.

I know that may sound very loud and out of place for many people, the mother and daughters have sexual relations with the same man, or a group of men, but through history incestuous relationships have always existed and with them that great taboo that was creating the forbidden and profane relationship.

However none of us were here this practice had never been given yet, not try to justify it, but when there is trust, understanding and most of all understanding; both physical and emotional participant, you can make it a taste, a desire and an absolute complicity without leaving your own home.

It is not easy to lead a sexual family life, much less for a man to accept that his wife and daughters to be possessed and deflowered by a man. Oblivious to his family in this macho world that my husband give way to a younger man or men was for him a blow to his manhood but also discovered a new pleasure it is to see his wife and daughters be penetrated with vigor and enjoy the relationship.

Since children’s education without tabos in sexual and since when were old enough to understand things, I told them my secret and my past, understood my sex life with her father and I shared with them my sexual experience.

In many cases the mother usually ignore the facts and daughters afraid to tell for fear they do not believe them or for fear that the father or the man who deflowered touch and end up in jail and thus break the economic survival of the family .

And in cases where the mother learns he decides not to make it known, for fear of scandal and he does not know what to do with the situation that has been created in the family.

In my case with my daughters also were forced or raped, I can say that we are normal people just have a different relationship, it is more than fine talk about the contempt of society especially in families … no longer I extend my most wanted post a little bit of my story, a relationship voluntarily, where there were babies and fruit of the relationship we have.

When in a relationship where the mother and daughters accept being pregnant have children fruit of that relationship living is a bond for life because a child is not for a day, a weekend or for a few years a child is a link will be present for life …

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