Ashamed, deep inside, and begging for your command

I never thought I’d write this.

I’m over 20, so I’m still young but for as long as I can remember, I’ve explored my submissive side, various kinks, and the fact that, despite being straight, I enjoy anal play. Until now, I was too ashamed to tell anyone, so please know that I’m sharing a real secret with you. I want to give you a glimpse into my erotic life; I want you to read this, comment, and so on. I feel a mix of hope and embarrassment about your engagement. So, I’ll start here: for as long as I can remember, I’ve liked putting things fingers and other objects up my ass. I once bought a 40cm slink dildo.

At first, I was afraid to even take it out of the package. Then I started slowly. First halfway, then more, until finally, I learned to insert almost the whole thing. When it goes deep, the sensation of fullness makes my legs go weak. Sometimes my stomach tightens and bulges slightly; that’s when the mix of panic and intense arousal is strongest. I always do it quietly. I check the locks and cover the windows. Once, I got so scared someone might find it that I threw the toy away. I regretted it for a long time. Now I have it back. And I’m inserting it deep again.

What I’m most ashamed of is the fact that I’m a guy doing this… and that you’re about to read about it. I’m truly ashamed.

But I still can’t stop thinking about it. So I’m asking you directly: Should I be doing this while locked in a chastity cage? Do you want me to try going even deeper or to test out a larger diameter? Do you want to read about the times I succeed, or the moments when I fail and have to stop?

Do you want a detailed description of what it feels like when it goes inside, how my body reacts, and what I look like afterwards?

I’m publishing this post.

And if there’s a response if you write that this is what you want I’ll do it for you.

I’ll take it deep, knowing that you’re aware of it and waiting for it. Leave a comment for everyone to see, or send me a private message I’ll definitely respond to it.