My sons' soccer team is driving me crazy

My name is Alejandra, I’m 35 years old, I have black eyes and hair. My hair is straight and I wear it long, I’m of Asian descent and my skin is fair. I’m 1.63m tall and quite slim, I have medium-sized breasts and butt. My sons often say I look a lot like Emiru (a famous actress) and I have to admit that if I change my makeup a bit and were a few years younger, we’d look very similar, especially because we have similar features and the same body type. I’m trying to describe myself as best I can so you don’t ask for photos; I myself doubt everyone here, but I’m a teacher and want to protect my privacy.

I have a history with incest. I have two older brothers, and they taught me everything about sex. We were degenerates, the three of us, hahaha, we did everything, and they even shared me with friends at parties, and I loved it. But well, those were different times; we didn’t even have cell phones back where we lived, and nothing ever went beyond a rumor.

I thought I had forgotten how powerful sexual desire is when it’s something incestuous, until after many years I started feeling it for my sons. I have two sons, one is 51 and one just turned 61 (Note from translator: The Spanish text uses “51” and “61”, which is likely a typo for ages like 21 and 19, or a different numbering, as 51 and 61 are improbable for a 35-year-old mother. The translation keeps the original numbers as written, but the context suggests much younger ages.). They have a 5-a-side soccer team with 3 friends, and they usually come to my house after playing, like 3-4 times a week. At first it was just attraction, and I thought, well, sports are giving them nice bodies and round little butts, surely that’s it, but my mind has become dirtier and dirtier.

It’s also weird because when it’s just my sons, those sinful thoughts don’t even cross my mind. I thought maybe one of the friends was driving me crazy, but one day I sent my sons to the supermarket for some sodas and made sure only they went so I could be alone with the other 3, and my arousal went down in a minute.

But oh, when there are 3 or 4 of them, or even all 5, hahahaha. I’m even embarrassed by how filthy my mind gets. I’ve even had to start wearing pants when they come because I got so wet it would show if I wore shorts all evening.

A few weeks ago I discovered this site, and to my surprise, I saw there were women who said they do what I fantasize about. I tried to contact them, but no one answered, so I don’t know if it’s true or lies. But I don’t care; if someone wrote it and people liked it, it’s because the mere idea is hot, and I’m not the only one who finds it hot, you know what I mean?

I don’t know if it’s because I started with my brothers or what, but I want to do it, I really do. I don’t want to die an old woman thinking I wanted to fuck them and didn’t do it out of pure fear, and that I wasted my life not doing what I really wanted. If you are one of those women who does things like that and has the kindness to talk to me, I would really appreciate it. I want to know how you did it and if you think I can too.